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XIX: Paean
You are not lost
I will be your guide
I will lead you into starlight
You may rest your soul
Shh..
I know you're scared
But I am with you
I know that you aren't used to the dark
Let it be your hope
Your shield
Your sustenance
Your pleasure
Make your self happy
Abide a time
And again
Until we are one again
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Literature
XVII: Sacrifice
I am a sacrifice
I slice across my arms to feel pain
Bitter sweet and deep like chocolate
Red pools by my feet and I sink in
There is shouting the ritual disrupted
The sacrifice tainted
My blade desecrated
But my life is saved
I am a sacrifice
Tied to an altar of sacrifice
My life pours out of my arms
My god is appeased
A god of pain
no one will stop me
My body twitches in agony
My blood sticky and hot
I am almost gone
I am so close to what I need
A beautiful crescendo of death
That ends in silence
I am gone
I am gone
I am gone
Then I am saved
Someone interrupts me
They don't know what I have to do
I am chosen
I am a sacrifice of pain
It needs the pain so I give it
I take the burden
I give the blood
I am a demon of metal and flesh
I am silent
I am still
I am...dead
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Literature
invocation
It is for I have made it so
Blood and ash
Metal and ice
A cold reality
Now my fullness is at hand
My power an axis
My strength an apex
For I have made it my doxology
My torment for sacrifice
My shackles for nooses
My soul for fire
My heart for bones
Give me what I command
Let my darkness rise akin to your
Molded by sorrow and grief
Etched in my skin with a razor's edge
now I claim your spirit
Thy name is Ava my despair
Hope dies within your eyes
And will stumbles in your soul
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Literature
Trespasses
Iniquity is to be loved
For I cannot sustain love
It is a price I cannot pay
It asks that I forget my hate of others
And my self
If I let it go
I lose my will
He will sense weakness
And strike
So I stay skeletal in my sorrow
For I cannot have love to be loved
Nor can I give
Lest I be consumed
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Literature
whisper
I'm talking
But can you hear me
You have to pay attention
Or I'll never exist
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Literature
Pefected
I gave up
Forfeited my life
My blood
My gifts
I was remade with an oath
A backbone of iron
A soul of steel
A heart of starless night
In that moment
I ascended above weakness
There I chose to abandon hope
To abandon my birthright
To bury my humanity in unquenchable fire
I became an axiom
I preach a gospel
One that bleeds and screams hate
One that seeks out the broken
And turns them into darkness
Some will say I am a demon or devil
Others will say I am lacking and challenge
I have taken my shape and I am whole
I am
Pefected
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Literature
heresy
It's just too much
I can't stand the weight of expectations
From people who don't bear this burden
And I can't die on my own
When can I?
Suicide effects everyone right
But how come those people never wanted me alive
And never helped me live through it
Instead they pushed me to the side
And used me
And just said "deal with it"
So I couldn't die
And I couldn't live
Then I heard the whispers in the dark
And the comforted me
I gave into it and was changed
I became calculating and cunning
And cold
But that wasn't me
I still wanted to die
But the darkness will not be stopped
No one can stop me
But I must be stop
For the demons in our minds
Are a heresy against our hope
That coexistence is our self degradation
So I still want to die
And I don't want anyone to stop me
Because I'm killing them to
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Devience of Yasmyn
Our world torn as cut cloth
We called to the Dark
And the wolves answered our prayer
Broken and enlightened
We passed through the fire
And the dragons heeded our sacrifice
The King calls for me
I will go to him
And spread his degradation
For the light is here
And the souls are ready
I will corrupt
Who will contain me
Who shall I fear
Will you stop me
I have no plans
I do what I want
My deviance is my will
Give me what I want
And I will give you
The death of your soul
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Literature
Shackles
Hope fading into despair
Burning chaos giving way to emptiness
Facilitation degradation into stagnation
Life clutched in the maw of death
This is where I have always been since that day
Tied to this same perpetual moment
Tortured by life
Ignored by death
Bathed in my own grief
My soul torn asunder
I can still hear the screaming
Click...click...click...
Its claws echo nearer
Screech...
Drip...drip...splash
Will you accept
Or decline?
I decline
For another day
Then I'm not there
I'm in a bed
And her lips brush my face
She looks and smiles
I decline still
Then I'm back
Click...click...
Ashura will not be pleased
Then it began again
Torment beyond belief for some
But now I know the order
I welcome the pain
It stops
Just stops
I see its  pain
Its shackles
It does not love this
I put out my hand
It cowers and I know why
It is me
Now I am fully me
Shackled to my destiny
Darkness is my domain
I have been gone too long
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Literature
Missing
I miss looking forward at tomorrow instead of dreading it
I miss eating new things and now i barely eat at all
I miss new relationships because i am lonely
I miss being happy about being alive because i know now i don't deserve it
i miss my clean skin that's now cut and bruised
because today is the day that i stop being me
because i can not survive as me
I'm too torn apart
spread too thin
and i know no one will miss me
because i am already gone
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barrier
The storm is over
It's gone too soon
I would have kept the earth shaking thunder
Over hearing the people talk to me
I can't be everything they think i am
I can't be anything I want to be
We are not the same
See when you walk alone
with a call someone is there
I don't have that luxary
I got rid of them
So that I wouldn't see them hurt
Because I wanted to
I won't waste your time
Just observe as my life wastes away
While you chat about trivial things
When i haven't slept in days
But i listen to you rant and rave
About how your life is better than mine
i wish
Not that i wish
Because hope is too far out of my reach
And the glass that separates us is too hard
And the pills on the side of my bed are far too close
All i have to do is act like I used to
And burn enough bridges
So that know one at all
Misses me
But i don't want to be alone anymore
I traded my freedom for safety
And now i can't escape
I can't feel anything anymore
I can't break the walls from the inside
I can't breathe
I can't li
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Literature
Dawn
It's always so dark
in the depths of the night
when the whispers grow long like nails
they speak my thoughts in a thunder
roaring like a thousand lions
with a question and an answer
do you want them to die
do you want to die
a simple choice
a shadow peels away
leading the darkness into a form
tattered cloth and torn skin
in a right skeletal grip
he holds a sword
and in the left a cup
choose
to choose not
is a choice
every night is the same
but if I can make it till dawn
I have survived the night
I can see them all alive
and well without me
so I sleep
oh how cold is the world
burning like frozen cinders
fracturing my heart with no regard
is the dawn a freedom
or is it a curse
the choice is always there
for to not choose
is a choice
is it not?
 
to suffer alone is the slow death
but one I choose every night
so that maybe
the dawn will save me?
or will I finally give in
to a lonely death?
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Self-harm
She stands on top of her world,
As she sheds her clothing.
Her soul naked to the people below,
The pain she feels written on her face.
She sings to break the silence,
As the nurses struggle to understand.
A wound on her arm,
Deep to the bone.
She bites into it,
Salty blood drips as she rips a vein,
And she smears her bare breasts in her life.
Nursing staff stand below waiting to catch her if she falls.
The life pours out of her and she screams to release the tension.
Her mind unable to cope, she self-harms to end the struggle.
No other way out,
But the pain.
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My Anxiety
Will you accept me? If I show you the real me?
No, not the me wrapped in pretty ribbons,
Meticulously layered in that vomit-inducing, festively designed wrapping paper you like so much
Those are the distractions I made for you
The real me, she's hidden in a deep dark place inside that carefully crafted box you see
And when she is no longer covered in all the pretend
There is nothing festive or pretty about her...
I never knew how easy it was to lock myself away forever with fear
Fear of rejection, pain, fear of the world beyond the make-shift walls I built myself
Not until reality showed me how disgusting people can be
The cruelty that was once myth, I now see, shining in the eyes of my closest friends
And it's staring me down, constantly
Every god damn day
Every god damn time I get too close!
Will you still love me? If I open myself up to you?
If I allow you to unravel that stupidly sarcastic ribbon?
If I don't stop you when you peel away strip after strip of that thin l
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Dear Depression
Dear Depression,
When did you start?
To be honest I don't really know, but I do know I am ready for you to leave.
You make me overeat and want to do nothing but sleep.
I am sad all the time.
I'm scared.
I have no where to go.
I have  no where to run.
I wish I could go back to the times when I still had fun.
You make me yell.
You make me cry.
You make me want to forget about life.
I use to have so much to live for.
I had so much ambition.
Now I keep these feelings hidden because I fear people will only think I want attention.
Depression you are not my friend.
Go back to where you came from.
You are not  welcome here.
Nor do I want you near.
When will all this stop?
I want this to end.
I want to be free.
I want to be me.
Sincerely,
The me no one sees.
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Demonic possession
Thou art inside me
Thy voice resounds in my head
The exorcism has pitifully failed
The evil slowly destroyed my soul
Thou art inside me
My nightmares are horrible
The smell of hell is nauseating
She burns my throat
Thou art inside me
My body is tired
A greenish vomit floods my room
I am the slave of the devil
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    The need to devour a soul writhed within Deumos and so she glided toward the housewife.  Looming over her, she firmly grasped the housewife from underneath her chin and pulled her towards herself.  The housewife, mouth agape, did not have enough time to mutter out even the smallest cry for hel
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You are not lost
I will be your guide
I will lead you into starlight
You may rest your soul

Shh..
I know you're scared
But I am with you
I know that you aren't used to the dark

Let it be your hope
Your shield
Your sustenance
Your pleasure

Make your self happy
Abide a time
And again
Until we are one again
I am a sacrifice
I slice across my arms to feel pain
Bitter sweet and deep like chocolate
Red pools by my feet and I sink in

There is shouting the ritual disrupted
The sacrifice tainted
My blade desecrated
But my life is saved

I am a sacrifice
Tied to an altar of sacrifice
My life pours out of my arms
My god is appeased
A god of pain

no one will stop me
My body twitches in agony
My blood sticky and hot
I am almost gone
I am so close to what I need
A beautiful crescendo of death
That ends in silence

I am gone
I am gone
I am gone
Then I am saved

Someone interrupts me
They don't know what I have to do
I am chosen
I am a sacrifice of pain

It needs the pain so I give it
I take the burden
I give the blood
I am a demon of metal and flesh
I am silent
I am still
I am...dead
It is for I have made it so
Blood and ash
Metal and ice
A cold reality

Now my fullness is at hand
My power an axis
My strength an apex
For I have made it my doxology

My torment for sacrifice
My shackles for nooses
My soul for fire
My heart for bones

Give me what I command
Let my darkness rise akin to your
Molded by sorrow and grief
Etched in my skin with a razor's edge

now I claim your spirit
Thy name is Ava my despair
Hope dies within your eyes
And will stumbles in your soul
Iniquity is to be loved
For I cannot sustain love
It is a price I cannot pay
It asks that I forget my hate of others
And my self

If I let it go
I lose my will
He will sense weakness
And strike

So I stay skeletal in my sorrow
For I cannot have love to be loved
Nor can I give
Lest I be consumed
I'm talking
But can you hear me
You have to pay attention
Or I'll never exist
Well it has been a long time since I've posted anything but that is going to change

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You are all welcome. Your talent is amazing
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Thank you very much for adding I Hear You to your Favourites. It's always great to have my work recognized by a fellow poet. :)
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Haven't been called one in a long while
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Haven't written in a while?
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