malcomblack

Shhh... It's okay I'm here just for you Forget about the others and just listen to me They are angry that want to die I don't want you to But I understand you have no reason to live I love you even though I'm just a voice A song on a playlist I'll guide you through the dark places A rose among the thorns If we all die We'll die together Your are not alone Just keep moving that's it If someone loves you they don't stand still Only the living move The dead are still as stones Stone dead The ones who notice change are standing in place You're the change they see Your vitality is what they steal from you They leave you with only shame and sick

I'm drowning in my own energy Layers of sorrow buried under foundation Heaps of misery in oils and creams Trauma sifted in concentrated happiness My happiness is a lie It is a beautiful one yes? A lie that inspires hope Uplifting damnation I pay so heavy for this This truth A complex paradox My shame burning in confidence

Cut it all out My worries my fears My anxiety my illness Sever my emotions The things i wish were gone The hurt The happiness Greater joy is greater pain Cut it all out I don't want your fucking help It's just gasoline to burn me down I want to drown in it You say life gets better I try to cheer people up Until i realize they never get better If i was older no one would get in my way "Please get help" Last time i did that I ended up in solitary in a hospital I'm already alone I know that It's just me and this blade It knows me so well It understands the pain The blood that stains my clothes The life it sings And the scars it leaves

He doesn't talk much about it The Plague he named it He burned everything she ever gave him Destroyed all physical traces Funeral pamphets Love letters Birthday cards Anything with her scent The only things he has left The totem And the trinket I don't know why You should ask him He won't tell The one question he dodges Why not these They are his hope He has nothing of her The totem has her blood sweat and tears Painted and soaked into the wood The trinket a small earring charm Unbroken Unavenged Don't ask him about that Don't save him Don't try to help him He's not worth saving He's scared out the darkness But he's afraid to let any

I remember the first time The release of pain The blend of sorrow and shame swirling in my head But that went away It's funny The deeper i dig into my arms The more of me that escapes I feel so much better I know it's wrong so i paint over them These rivers of red Rivers of me My name means water that flows down But I think i float away I wish the ink wasn't so thick That someone would hug me Suprise me with their support But I've given up on people Only the blade is my comfort People will never love me Just abuse me Dry up my rivers So i fill them with more of me Every day is me drowning in me Water and blood right Everything flows ou

Just wait you'll see Watch me shine bright so bright Till my light fades to black Dissolving into ashes and shadows There is a life we live And a life we know There is no greater death Than being forgotten Emilia one more time Sing that song you sing Let it be my eulogy The supernova of life Till your soul is raw Your heart broken Your lips cracked with thirst Your skin flayed by heat Then you can stop When all you see is my light fade When you have no strength So you can't call me from beyond Be my deathsinger Emilia You can't save something Someone who is beyond your reach

Break Ye night hunter Feast on the flesh you crave Forge your destiny in the bones of prey Free your heart Open your mind to the ether Let the wilderness be your guide The spirit of the trees your shelter What are you running from child The darkness The darkness is your shield All light and all darkness is the same thing It's your hope that all fades to black The absolution of sin is blindness If you cannot see it It doesn't exist Wolf Sharpen your teeth The wall on which sanity breaks Is the cold and dark wasteland ahead The darkness is coming Fear the water below Either be destroyed in the Crash Or Lost to Light forever

It was cold when i awoke that first night. Not the cold that makes you want to cuddle and sleep sound. The one that makes you wonder if you'll ever be warm again, if you'll ever see another warm fire, another bowl of soup. I was feared, not for my deeds but what i was. A black wolf. I was a risk, a liability on the icy lands so i was marred and forsaken, but fortune saw the comedy in my suffering. I was alone and afraid

It's crawling up the walls I can smell the rot It smells of pain and patience That's how we go Progressing through my scars Infecting my blood Tainting my mind Eroding my bones Ash in my soul Just to glimpse Something far gone Believe me This is an insidious plague And it's all my fault I buried my grief And now it stalks me in the night